I know I havent written here in awhile………

But my life is not that interesting and I dont have much to say. Except today I got out of bed and let the dogs out and feed them and gave Angel her meds then Sean came home from work………not saying “hello” or anything and went about his stuff he needed to do and that just put me in a depressed mood. I felt like I didnt exsist or my presents wasnt felt. I know it s stupid of me to feel that way but I get that way sometimes. I asked him if I was really here and he didnt understand what I was saying. But then he finally got it.

He also decided now was the time to find out what was wrong with me and I told him that I am just depressed . So he told me that he really does love me and that he doesnt show me enough(and I am guilty of the same thing).

He also said to me that sometimes he gets scared that I am gonna leave him becuz he doesnt want to make the “commitment”. and Sometimes I just want to run back to PA if he doesnt do that soon. Is this wrong for me to be this way? I dont know.

Also when I am in the shower I do all my thinking in there and today I was thinking that here I am 40 yrs old and I have done nothing in my life that matters. I need to figure out what I want to do and figure out how I can achieve them. I did want to run a marathon by the time I was 40 why u may ask? Just becuz to see if I could do it……..well hasnt happened yet so I guess I cant do it.

Oh well maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

 

Spooky photo proves life on Mars?

 

Please Check this out………

Hello all!

Please check out my cousins website for handmade purses and scarves here is the addy

gracedesignonline.com

Have a Happy day!!!! Hugs to ya’ll

BTW Pats vs Giants!

 

Hummers Suck

 

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just something to make me smile

 

My last grandparent

Hi all,
I just got done talking to my mom about my grandmother. She has told my mother that she’s ready to let go of this world.  She has made a request to see her grandchildren.  Apparently, she is much more alert and active than she’s been in recent weeks and days.  PLEASE take her request seriously, and call your kids and have them visit their grandmother as soon as possible.  It would be wonderful if she can be surrounded by those she loves so dearly.  She has loved us and respected our choices in our lives…..please show her your love and respect now.
Thanks,
Stacy
I got this email tonite b4 I was heading to bed. I am going to call my mom in the morning to see what she has to say becuz she hasnt mentioned anything to me about this. Please if your the praying kind please send a little prayer for my grandmom. I want her to stick around until I can make some arrangements to go back to see her.

 

grandpa

well today grandpa finally died…..12/23/07. See what they did was take him off iv’s so he basically died of starvation. which I think is really wrong but they did what they thought was right.

I really didnt know him, so really its not all that sad for me. I know you might think that to be cold but we didnt grow up with him. My mom didnt even sound upset much,she just said well he lived along time.

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!

 

grandfather

I just found out tonite dec 16th that my grandfather probably wont make it thru the night. I am kinda sad about it but not overly only becuz I didnt know him that well. He wasnt in our lives very much. He just turned 90 in november so He has had a long life.

I asked my mom if she wanted me to come back for the funeral when the time comes and she said there was no need for it. So she is ok with it to. He wasnt in their life much either.

He is the last of my grandfathers. I didnt know the other one either because He died before I was born.

I also found out that my grandmom(moms mom) is in stage 6 of altimerze(I think that how you spell it). There is supposedly 7 stages. She is 93. I said to my mom that she went really fast thru the stages and she tried to explain to me that whenever they are in the hospital it speeds up the process becuz all they want to be is at home and that somehow speeds it up.

I definately have to make sure I go see her the next time Im back. But I dont want to see her that way and its hard for me to do that. I just want to remember her the way she was. She was always on the go and doing things.

I also found out that one of my cousins is getting a divorce and she moved back home from south carolina.

All this in one convo with my mom geeze!

I also want to say that I am really happy for my friend! She got told the “L” word and it made her very happy and she deserves that!! I wish her the best!! and she knows that I “L” her also I hope anyways!

Mahh eagles won against the D today also woot!!!

ok later gators whoever reads thist LOL!

 

whatever

I am so not ready for christmas this year. It seems like just last week it was Thanksgiving. Whatever. Anywho….this is the time of year that I really miss my family and my nephews the most. I wont be able to see their faces when they open their gifts.
Also Sean has to but 7 of his 8 grandkids gifts and he doesnt know what to get them so I will have to think of things. They range from 1yr-to 10yrs old. 2 of his sons have 3 kids and one has 2. 3 girls and 5 boys. I keep saying to sean that he didnt teach his boys well enough becuz they cant keep it in their pants lol! Anywho………
we got this gift that was a toy learning lap top computer and I was talking to my sister and I asked her what she wanted and she said a laptop so Sean and I thought that we would (not really)give her this learning one and put a note in it that says “keep this for Boes kid becuz from what he says its not that far off” LOL my mom saids that we are mean LOL! I would love to see my sisters face when I tell her this!

Anyway nothing much is going on here except that I am so tired of snow and ice I cant wait for summer to come again!
ok done now take care all!

 

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